Status: Pending

Well there goes my resolution to blog regularly. Yep. Ah well... i'm here now.

Things have been happening. Big things. My world is yagoogely.

Firstly, my bestie was pretty ill (hospitalised twice) with a mystery illness. She is ok now, but it really threw our world. As a result, we had to postpone (hopefully not indefinitely?) our Toddlers and Tiaras themed combined birthday party. Boo hoo!

Secondly, I left my permanent office job to do casual work. This is a big thing for me, leaving the security and predictability of a regular 9 to 5 job. I used to know exactly when I was working, and more importantly, how much money I was going to have, and I could set my life to a timepiece. Now, for the first time in many years, I don't have that. And it's a bit scary.

But it's also exciting, because it has reminded me that I am, first and foremost, an artist. I have a casual job that is not rigid and does not demand all of my attention, because I WANT to commit myself to a life of expression and creativity. It's what i've always wanted. I just got lost in the easy road of “security” these last few years.

The other big thing is that I joined a dating site. Putting aside the excitement and nerves of actually meeting cute boys, it is actually a really big thing for me to process the act of “putting myself on the market”. I mean, I know it's not this black and white, but I have worked so hard over the last couple of years to be independent and self-sufficient, i'm struggling with the concept of opening myself up romantically to someone, without considering it seeking validation or 'completion'.

So, current status = reprogramming myself to consider a potential special someone as “an additional bonus” and not a complete affront to my personal freedom.

THINGS I AM CURRENTLY WORKING ON!

My band (Zombie Scooter Club) is working on a little film clip in which I get to dress as a glamrock Steel Panther fan. So I am making an awesome t-shirt for that! Think glitter lettering, fur shoulders, and CHAIN.

My other goal at the moment is to sort out my camera situation, and organise my space so I have somewhere to start taking same OOTD photos, because BOY have I been coming out with some crackers lately! I think it's because I ADORE colder weather, and it really inspires my wardrobe.

Oh, I also just found this photo, and I quite like it. Especially considering I don't usually like open-mouthed smiling photos of myself. (Also I haven't posted a photo on here yet, so I probs should).